monday;chem X1,sblm dpt supervisor
"Ya Allah,jgnla dpt topic yg susah2"

wednesday;my room
"Ya Allah,nk buat topic ape ni?"

ohh..3hari dh berlalu..mase smkin suntuk,task perlu disiapkan
suggested topic pn xde lagi..apetah lg approved topic

bile diberi kebebasan utk memilih,itulah sbnrnye saat yg plg sukar

Ya Allah,jgn kau biarkan nasib kami ditentukan oleh diri kami sndri,wlau kadar sekelip mata atau pada masa yg lebih kurg dr itu
Ya Allah yg Maha memperkenankan doa,perkenankanlah"

utk my anak/cucu/cicit..let me introduce,this is my supervisor
http://www.nottingham.ac.uk/~pczgp1/pattenden-main.html

sy harap senyuman dowden xmempunyai ape2 maksud tersirat pada petang itu
juga sy waswas dgn sambutan baek dowden pd ptg itu

pls pls pls ya Allah,make it easy for me
i'm not pursuing for phd

~sy yg masih keliru dgn SN1 vs SN2 rxn + kinetic n thermodynamics control rxn tibe2 terpakse disupervised oleh syeikh kabir organic chemistry~

terribly missing somethings in my life

sy dpt msg dr cekgu chemistry sy mase kt kmb dlu
sy amat suke
huhu
sy pn nk jd cam beliau
sy nk jd cekgu kimia gk
sy nk jd cekgu kimia yg paham ape itu kimia
bukan yg skema mengikut skema jwpn

oleh itu..sy haruslah pahamkan ape yg saye blaja ini
huhu
paham camne?
dgn hati la kan
kalo paham gune otak sy yg xsbrp ni mesti lupe nye after exam
sy xnak nnt org tny sy jwb lupe padahal sblm tuh dh tau

kesimpulannye..huhu tetibe xnak exam oriented
xnak buat past yrs?(mmg xnak)
huhu

we're outlaws we're street gangs
we're the insolent ones,nothing pleases us
hold a tight rein on us, and it will brew trouble
we're hopeless, so what?
we don't give a damn if you look down on us
we're nothing, we care for nothing
why this wall of silence between us?
there is a wall between us
teachers give up on us
parents think we're insensible
society's expectation exceeds our imagination
smart kids must be good,they say
looking down on us doesn't mean you're better
who cares why we lose direction?
nobody gives a thought to how the apple rots?
we tried to win consensus
how much hope have you given us?
tears are dried, the future's bleak
we are lost souls, what should we do?
punishment is your method to make us grow
it destroys all our hopes and ambitions
you need a key
focus on their talents and not their flaws
standing at a crossroad,bellowing in the wind
don't kill our hopes
teachers give up on us
parents blame us for being insensible
society's expectation exceeds our imagination

~i'm not stupid too~

as a muslim,a member of society, a daughter, a student, a future teacher, a future wife, a future mother, a friend, a neighbour, a buyer, a customer, a passenger, a rentee..their voices hv place in my heart..its something not-to-be-neglected..see the people around u, find the key