Salam,

Esok isnin. Dr rabu-today sy temankan kwn bw pelajar ke kuale. Skrg (10:19 pm 04032012) bas baru sampai sek bawa budak2 hoki tournament hoki sbp zon utara kt mckk. Tp sy smpi BD kul 2 lebih lg sbb ada hal yg my friend kena setelkan. Alhamdulillah Allah masih bg kesempatan utk menghirup nafas kt dunia ni n smg sy boleh teruskan hidup sbg seorang muslim dan mukmin. Smlm masa benda tuh jd sy xfikir apa2 pun. Tp bila fikir2 balik semula harini sbrnya kalo lebih dr 2 saat benda tuh berlaku smlm mesti hari ni sy dh xmenjalankan proses respirasi dh. I got goosebumps kalo fikir balik kejadian tuh.

Ok2..sbnrnya tahun ni sy kena ngajar 6 kelas. (selalunya 5). Dlm byk2 kelas yg sy ajar dr sy mula2 jd cikgu secara rasmi, ada 1 kelas ni yg buat sy blank. Sy xtau kenapa everytime sy masuk kelas tuh sy rasa pelik. Mcm ada perang dingin cikgu-students and I'm keep thinking what should I do for the becoming days (sblm diorg SPM).

Got text msg from my ex-student.
"Assalamualaikum teacher. Teacher, my mom asked my help to teach my std 2 brother. But somehow, everytime I'm teaching him, he seems to be not focus. And I will start to scold him. I feel bad about it teacher. When you were teaching me, there were times when I main2. But you were just still so nice to me. N I'm acting like this to my own brother. Teacher, I'm letting the kemarahan to take over myself. Isn't kemarahan is actually comes from satan? Teacher, how do I get to be as calm as u are?"

I love her. Sy amat bersyukur krn dia berfikir dan dia sentiasa memperbaiki diri dia. Saya? Ada jawapan wahai cik saya?

Sbnrnya sy rasa tidak pandai marah students adalah kelemahan sy. Tp the students appreciate it pula. Yes, bukan sng nk deal ngan people ni. Kena banyak n pandai main perasaan. And bila perasaan get involved, yes I failed.

Apa motif n apa kesimpulan entri ni? Mcm xtersusun lak. Tp ok, sy akan mula semangt baru utk g sek esok. Allah dh bg sy peluang utk trus berjuang, so kene trus berjuang. Anak-anak yg dlm kelas sy are the potentials. Jgn lepaskan potential yg ada. Ok, post je la dulu, nnt kalo perlu edit sy edit kemudian.